countdown to hell week.

Hahahahahaha hahaha haha haaa yeah. It's back to reality for us mere workers. And I am really starting to hate coming to work. Laziness aside, this industry isn't very promising to me anymore. The pressure and stress that come with it are not worth all the money I get every 15 days at all. So I'd really appreciate it if they just go sack me this Friday (the word "deliberation" irks me every time) and end my misery already. *sigh* That's prolly just the hormones complaining. Or the feeling of loss that's slowly eating me away. Yagi is speaking to me again, to ask advice about love life and whatnot. Engk! Wrong person to ask. But you know how I'd like to anyway help, so I tell him what I think about the helplessness that he is feeling right now. Yes, he is in love. And he's in love with...somebody else, which is sorta a relief, and annoying at the same time. What the hell was he thinking, hitting on me months ago when he is really into someone else? Aa. I think I can relate at some point, but it doesn't really help me feel less pathetic. So I just realized why I'd always think I'd never get married to anyone after he had asked. Thanks to recent happy events, and the bottomless insecurities that I think so. *sigh* I just hope I survive the day. Hug me, Mike. I so need one right now.